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Never in my entire life (thus far) do I feel this intricate emotion churning nastily somewhere within my innards. December is finally here, and while most associates within my (somewhat limited) social circle of life have already commenced rejoicing for the impending festive season to come, I'm rather concerned in dismay with my current life nevertheless.
It's the last month of the year. The last period of my stay in Oslo. The last of my wild Europe travelogue endeavour. The last chance I own to immerse myself in this somewhat new cultural experience here in Scandinavia. The last pardon before it's revoked to see me deprived of liberal personal time and space that has been pretty constructive towards personal aspirational development.
The last Editor's Letter that I'll be penning for the year 2009.
I'm not nostalgic (I know I'm in denial as a Virgo) but am just really organizing my thoughts and experience gathered and realized how cruel time has (always) been to me. Time is cunning, it gets past you while you're unaware, while you're having the best and worst moments in life. Time does not bid you Good Morning, Good Evening or Good Bye (your mom does), but does its job in governing your usage of your lifespan. Time is passive, but it's constantly present as every second of it ticks by without exceptions. "Time's up", says me aloud in my mind. "Treasure whatever time you have to re-organize yourself before your imminent re-integration back into your home sovereignty", says me somewhere else (possibly my heart).
There will never be a complete conclusion to my experience in this strange continent, nothing can conclude my complex reaction with the world as I interact with it like some chemical equation. Oxygen is O2 in science, but it's life to us since the prehistory of homo sapiens. When I'm jogging, I see CO2 as a nuisance byproduct of human anatomy. When I'm feeling bored, "car burn die outside" just pops to mind. I know this is not a good example to illustrate how intricate it is (perhaps how perverse my mental state is), but still it's too sophisticated for something as regular as a tiny full stop to conclude my experience here.
Life is such, such is life.
Fret not my dear readers, for this month will not be an "emo" issue of MSR. I'm all set in positivity to gear up for the upcoming Christmas travels in Germany, Austria and Belgium. Not forgetting the Northern Lights trip before everything else in mid December as I venture up north in search of the legendary "Aurora Borealis". That too, will be a difficult encounter to put into conclusive words. Maybe it's because somewhere within me (probably my heart once again), I never wanted these memories to conclude, to cease.
Ever.
Welcome to the month of winter festivity and enjoy your holidays as well as I do. If I can achieve that, so can you. Here's a little clue: Positivity vs. Negativity levels should always be positive.
Oh and great delicacy helps drastically too, especially chocolates.
Have a happy holidays.
It's the last month of the year. The last period of my stay in Oslo. The last of my wild Europe travelogue endeavour. The last chance I own to immerse myself in this somewhat new cultural experience here in Scandinavia. The last pardon before it's revoked to see me deprived of liberal personal time and space that has been pretty constructive towards personal aspirational development.
The last Editor's Letter that I'll be penning for the year 2009.
I'm not nostalgic (I know I'm in denial as a Virgo) but am just really organizing my thoughts and experience gathered and realized how cruel time has (always) been to me. Time is cunning, it gets past you while you're unaware, while you're having the best and worst moments in life. Time does not bid you Good Morning, Good Evening or Good Bye (your mom does), but does its job in governing your usage of your lifespan. Time is passive, but it's constantly present as every second of it ticks by without exceptions. "Time's up", says me aloud in my mind. "Treasure whatever time you have to re-organize yourself before your imminent re-integration back into your home sovereignty", says me somewhere else (possibly my heart).
There will never be a complete conclusion to my experience in this strange continent, nothing can conclude my complex reaction with the world as I interact with it like some chemical equation. Oxygen is O2 in science, but it's life to us since the prehistory of homo sapiens. When I'm jogging, I see CO2 as a nuisance byproduct of human anatomy. When I'm feeling bored, "car burn die outside" just pops to mind. I know this is not a good example to illustrate how intricate it is (perhaps how perverse my mental state is), but still it's too sophisticated for something as regular as a tiny full stop to conclude my experience here.
Life is such, such is life.
Fret not my dear readers, for this month will not be an "emo" issue of MSR. I'm all set in positivity to gear up for the upcoming Christmas travels in Germany, Austria and Belgium. Not forgetting the Northern Lights trip before everything else in mid December as I venture up north in search of the legendary "Aurora Borealis". That too, will be a difficult encounter to put into conclusive words. Maybe it's because somewhere within me (probably my heart once again), I never wanted these memories to conclude, to cease.
Ever.
Welcome to the month of winter festivity and enjoy your holidays as well as I do. If I can achieve that, so can you. Here's a little clue: Positivity vs. Negativity levels should always be positive.
Oh and great delicacy helps drastically too, especially chocolates.
Have a happy holidays.
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